why?

why do i always fuck things up why am i so dumb i am alway doing something that i think is right like telling the truth and guess what WRONG again i don't know why i try someone should just shoot me and be done with it.

Feelings in side

I feel like i am trapped in a cell behind blue eyes. Like i am drowning but there is not a drop of water near me. Like i am being crushed under too much pressure but there is nothing on me. I feel like i am screaming but my lips are still and slient. And i can't tell no one this cause they would not under stand. So i stay trapped, drowning,crushed and slient....

head full of hate

They tell you go back too school so you can get off unemployment but its all bullsh!t. So you go back to school thinking that i still got my unemployment checks for a while to help me get by and then you turn in a paper letting them know your back in school. And because you did not go through them or you did not go to vocational school and because you went for just a little bit more. They FU(k you hard and cut you off cause you are not willing to quit school to take the job you were going back to school to get away from so you don't brake your back or get stuck in a go no where job. They don't give a dame that you would like more for your kids or that you want to give them the things you never had or that you want to get out of that slum your living in. So here's my PSA to you.

Don't try to do better for your self cause you will just get $crewed hard fast and guess what nooo lube.